The fall this year is beautiful. The time of waiting filled with excitement and anticipation.
I cannot believe that in less than two weeks Baby F. might be with us. It seems like this pregnancy has passed so fast, way too fast. On one side I'm extremely happy, waiting with excitement for the big day but at the same time I'm a bit sad that so soon my bump will be gone. And I really love this bump. I love feeling this baby moving inside me. I tickle his foot, I gently pat his bottom (at this stage it's really easy to guess what is what). G. comes spontaneously to hug my bump. She places gentle kisses on it. I will miss these beautiful moments. I can't wait to see her being a big sister. This pregnancy has been so generous for me and I've been enjoying it so much. No pains, no problems I had when pregnant with G. I remember that towards the end of my first pregnancy I felt so exhausted, heavy and tired that I really prayed for her quick arrival (and she arrived one week after the due date, I was really powerless by then). But this time, I feel so much different. I didn't even put on weight that much. There is this huge bump and then there is me, still wearing my maternity clothes that I bought 4-5 months ago. I feel strong and full of energy and ready to welcome Baby F. We all are.
I have my worse days, of course. Last week I went down with terrible cold and couldn't stop coughing. If the baby had decided to arrive last week, I wouldn't have been able to push him out to this world on my own. Since natural and drug free labour is the only option I consider, I'm really glad I've regained my strength and energy.
Everything is ready. All clothes are washed, ironed and put away. The bed cot is set up, the hospital bags are packed, all important phone numbers are in hand. I finished writing my birth plan this morning and the only thing that needs to be done is CD with music for the labour (I'm still choosing the songs- any ideas?). And I still need to wash the cloth nappies but I'm waiting for the delivery of some new ones.
All is good. And full of love.